Spot of Autumn

photo by MichelleMarie

photo by MichelleMarie

I don’t know what
made me look up
from my sorrow
but I did
and this is what I saw this
Spot of Autumn
before my eyes
such a nice surprise
lifted my sorrow

still I wait. . .

We wait for Alex’s doc to give us instructions still, her right lung is 1/2 full of fluid….still waiting for results of the CT scan from yesterday. They aren’t even concerned about TB now, but finding out what is in her lung. She’s been sick for 2 weeks, with cdiff and infection of the lower intestine caused by too many antibiotics so right now there is nothing that can be done. Except for being hospitalized she’s home with me, there really isn’t anything they can do for her that I’m not trained to take care of so she feels better if she’s home and can rest more comfortably at home. I wanted to let you know so you know where my sorrow comes from. Alex has been fighting illness and tends to always suffer during this time of year. The list of diseases is now 5, so I am juggling each of those trying to find something that will help her. Right now sleep is all that will help her body fight…I’ve called everyone I can think of, her docs cell phone has 4 messages,  the radiologist has received 3 calls from me and I’m not giving up till we have a treatment plan.

If you are my close friend to me, you know that Alexanderia almost died to pneumonia in 2011. Her body has been bombarded with antibiotics that there are no more they can try, hence the cdiff in her colon. Since her immune system is compromised by other diseases, we wait for her body to fight. If the fluid continues to build they will place a chest tube, last time they drained over 2700 liters from her right lung. It’s quit scary and I pray something happens because that is my next step if I don’t hear something different. There is a lung specialist at the hospital, so I may try him next to see if he could help us.

Know that my faith is rock solid it never wavers but prayer for the doctors to do something would be nice.
Much love and huge hugs to you!

MichelleMarie

I think I see a bunny rabbit~Yep I sure do!

photo by MichelleMarie

photo by MichelleMarie

Bling I thought of you when Angel spotted a bunny rabbit at 6 am this morning. I used my flash so you could get a look at her keen hunting skills! NOT! The bunny took off and Angel looked at me like, I could have caught that one but I’m letting it go because we’re waiting for the sunrise! She literally goes nuts when I grab my camera so I know it’s the sunrises and the bunnies that keep her going! :D

Your Love Changed Me

photo by MichelleMarie

photo by MichelleMarie

I really was invisible when I came to WP! I know you don’t believe it but it simply is so! I love how your friendship builds me up on the inside and makes me believe in myself. Not that I was down trodden, or lost, oh no I was closed off, shut down and just flat almost dead inside.  I know it’s hard to believe but I never let anyone in, never!
I wouldn’t have missed loving you sweet friends for nothing, you know who you are and I’m thankful for you!

Roses for Belinda & Bling

photo by MichelleMarie

photo by MichelleMarie

Roses for You~Thank you for checking on me and BB. Tonight we are still waiting for test results, so while we were waiting I thought of you and wanted to thank you for thinking of us. These are the roses that BB threatens to tie to her Jeep and pull them out. They literally are almost to the top of her window and when it storms they tend to say Hi in a scratching kind of way! BB doesn’t like them but I think they love her! Thank you for loving us! I wanted you to know I appreciate your friendship!
I love you
BB and Me!